[Libra Skye18]

It's still so hard for me to wrap my head around all of this. I've been a wrestling fan since I was a small child and had been a fan of Chris Benoit's since he worked in the now defunct WCW even though I was more of a WWF (now WWE) fan.

This is such a tragic horrible event. I wish I could continue to differentiate Chris Benoit the amazing wrestler from Chris Benoit the man who murdered his wife and youngest son but I cannot.

As I watched "Raw" Monday night I had no knowledge that Chris had died- though I had been on a few sites earlier in the day the only thing that I read was that another wrestler (Johnny Nitro) had replaced him in a match during the Vengeance PPV on Sunday - tears immediately sprang into my eyes for a person that while I did not know personally, I had watched for many years and considered- as I previously mentioned- myself to be a fan of.

Upon finding out that not only he died but Nancy and their son (Who was Chris's youngest son) had also passed my heart ached. Now knowing what I know my heart still aches and tears come and go but they are now more than anything for a mother and her child.

I know the media would like to pinpoint this unfortunate incident on steroids but I think that Chris was dealing more than anything with a mental health issue. One that he hid so well considering many of his friends, family members, coworkers et cetera have been speaking out on never seeing him angry or in a bad mood.

It's all just so heartbreaking...