i'm currently trying to grow my natural hair colour out, but i hate it so much. it's an ashy, medium-blonde...it's like a non-colour, absolutely boring and liveless

but i used to colour it so much the past 10 years that my hair was pretty damaged and i just cut it relatively short and it's finally healthy again, so i want to stay strong and not colour it...but i'm currently obsessed with this haircolour, it's such a beautiful red shade
i've even bought a hairdye, but i haven't used it yet...i'm always going back and forth, one second i want to grow out my natural haircolour and the next i want to colour it