I have been contemplating on getting something done, bodywise. Maybe if I share my very personal story you might understand.
I had polycystic ovarian syndrome and the cysts made me body go haywire and one of the things it did was made me gain a lot of weight in a short period of time. I gained small quantities when the cysts were forming, but thought nothing of it really except growing up... The majority of weight happened around August to Febuary this year when I was diagnosed. I noticed I gained 10 pounds in one week. It was my birthday so I thought I just overate but was still shocked...I cut back and did some dieting until Christmas...by the time Christmas came I gained another 18 pounds even though I dieted. I was so insecure also my body hurt from the rapid weight gain that I spent my New Years crying in my room. 28 pounds in a month and a half is really painful; body aches made it painful to do anything and I have a lot of stretchmarks for that gain. After I probably gained an extra 25 before I was finally diagnosed. I think part of the reason why this year I've been so concerned with dressing well and having the perfect hair and make-up everyone wants is because it was the one constant on the outside I can control and I thought maybe if people noticed I look well and dress well then people wouldn't make fat jokes of me. I love to swim and I adore the beach, but ever since a relative called me Shamu and Yokozuna (a Sumo wrestler) I have sat with my shirt and skirt still on at the beach or swim with board shorts and a tee ...."fat suit" and I go swimming in my apartment pool at night in my "skinny suit" so no one but my best friend is there to see my scars and even so....I tinker with the pool switchboard and shut half the lights so its hard to look into the water.
Now that I've been on medicine, the cysts effects went away and I've slowly and painstakingly lost so far 13 pounds, but I can't make those extensive scars disappear and when I do go back to a smaller size if there's stubborn fats or loose skin I will not hesitate to lipo or mesotherapy it then nip and tuck it and I have my mothers full support on it. Yes, the procedures are still cosmetics to make me feel better, but I'm only a teen and I don't want to have what those cysts did to me the rest of my life. I don't want to look like a supermodel, hell I'm not expecting to be beautyqueens and models like my mom, sister and cousin, I just want to be me, healthy and without the baggage and scars.