A poem by 18-year-old Zoë, from "Somewhere Between the Subway and Six Feet"
THE LIFE
Zoë Tamerlis
Feb. 15, 1980
One love, one room, one hundred names,
windows blackened, if only they were my eyes.
Alone, lifetime spinning, sharpened to the point,
Taut,
Flexed.
In position of the strike it's been so long I've
garnered bedsores, and they will not let me sleep.
Where is the romance, now when the thirst is felt?
For velvet, syrup, and charity?
It was so clever: a false name, a slavic thrust,
Now they howl in the stillness, sand in the wind,
And your eyes sting but you know they cannot close.
Time was never in an hourglass.
It undulates, teasing with precision.
Time is a monsoon of strength and cowardice,
raw, but with veils, jails, of pain.
Objects have the strangest smell,
They reek of power, I think.
Telephones, hard-boiled eggs,
a knife, an oven, an iron grate.
My key in the door,
Who am I today?
I wait, wait for myself.
But if I'm not here, I disappear.
And so, myself, I wait.
One love, one room, one hundred names.
Windows blackened, if only they were my eyes.
Somewhere between the subway and six feet.
