Mala Bryan

[|BellaDonna|]

goodness I have no idea what I've done wrong could someone go to her blog and help me out???


(soooo embarrassed)

 

[simplylovely]

THISDAY's Africa Rising Music and Fashion Festival
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[|BellaDonna|]

THISDAY's Africa Rising Music and Fashion Festival
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she was in DC!!!!!!!!!!

and i missed her!!!! DOH

 

[enVogue]

She's pretty!
I like both her shape and face!
What happened BellaDonna?

 

[|BellaDonna|]

She's pretty!
I like both her shape and face!
What happened BellaDonna?

Oh I live in DC and didn't hear about the event until it was too late to attend.
I like Mala's work and would have liked the opportunity to see her in person thats all.

 

[|BellaDonna|]

Hey guys this is a post from her blog today.

I'm sure we can shoot her some encouraging words

Feeling the pressure to be even thinner all around. Going to the castings and see all the castings directors admiring the extremely thin. I look around and observe. Is she smaller than me? I wonder what diet she's on. But I don't think I really want my bones sticking out like that. Is that really what it takes? I look down and my boobs are staring me in the face, I love them but right now I have lots of doubt. Then I start to hate myself for thinking that way. I go home and I'm starving, so many castings I had no time to stop and eat. Maybe that was the trick, but now I am done with my day I can think of nothing else but food. Should I? I don't think so, I hop on the scale and I think I gained a pound, hmmm... maybe not. I guess I should go to bed since I'm so exhausted and weigh myself again in the morning. First thing in the morning I try my best to drink 4 glasses of water, I read somewhere that it is the best thing to do when you wake up (helps cleanse your colon), then I use the bathroom and head over to the scale, much better it was just waste. I go to my room and measure myself, nothing changed but I feel better. Then back for another round of castings, I observe. Is there a reason why so many of them look like young boys? Maybe it's the new thing, oh well I'll try to push my butt forward so I don't look like I have anything back there. Here we go again, stop it; you're beautiful I say but I'm not convinced. Oh my, do you see how thin she is?? Is that really what I want to look like? Everyone tells me how skinny I got but I don't see it, I don't see how I can be since I eat like a pig. But I guess I do see it sometimes. So then why do I still think I need to go down some more? But then I realize, I'm the tallest one there maybe that has something to do with it. Walking to my next casting and I think I felt my thighs rub against each other. I look down but it does not seem possible, I am out of my mind now. Oh my, will God punish me for now appreciating the body that he's blessed me with? Why do I feel like it needs to be accepted by everyone? I don't know. I've got curves, so what? Still a size 2, which should be something special right? I'll go home, look myself in the mirror and smile for a few minutes. Tell myself how much I love me. But I'm afraid, what would happen if I couldn’t say I love you back. I'm here sitting on a train writing this, on the verge of tears. Maybe it's all part of the game. But I love doing shows, when I'm out there I feel like I'm in a world that was meant for me. But I just can't be an anorexic. Can't always have it all now can we???

http://malabryan.blogspot.com/

 

[enVogue]

Very honest words, respect for her writing this in her blog

 

[simplylovely]

^ Same here.

 

[LUXRealtr]

She should feel GREAT about herself because she's FABULOUS!!! She's like a born model...regular people don't have legs that long! She reminds me of a black Nadja Auermann. Her body is perfect for high fashion; she is fierce

 

[simplylovely]

MC2 Model Management

 

[WheresMyUmbrella]

But she's so beautiful. Poor sweetie.

 

[simplylovely]

Malan Breton Spring 2009
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[rubydon]

gorgeous!

 

[simplylovely]

MC2

 

[|BellaDonna|]

so at ease and graceful
i love it!

 

[simplylovely]

MC2 Miami

 

[simplylovely]

Black Coal Spring/Summer 2009-10



ifashion.co.za

 

[simplylovely]

Dax Martin SS09-10



same source

 

[Deleted member 1957]

love her look shes among the models that were at the capetown fashion week. meanwhl does anyone get a Naomi vibe on her..the look?

 

[|BellaDonna|]

love her look shes among the models that were at the capetown fashion week. meanwhl does anyone get a Naomi vibe on her..the look?

definitely