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he walls of the Chicago Sun-Times newsroom are lined with historical black-and-white photos taken by staff photographers over the course of the last century. Their subjects range from the mundane to the magnificent -- sports heroes and presidents, icons and everymen, man-made spectaculars and natural disasters. My favorite is a photo of the actress Grace Kelly taken in 1955, a year before she became Princess Grace Grimaldi of Monaco.
In the picture, captured at the then-trendy nightspot called The Pump Room at Chicago's Ambassador East Hotel, Grace is dressed demurely in silk-satin and pearls. In the foreground of the picture, her hands, which are worrying a white cloth handkerchief, are in sharp focus, the closest thing to the observer, thrust out from the frame as if it were in three dimensions rather than two. Each time I pass that photograph, her hands make me stop and stare.
Grace has man hands. They're big and sturdy like Jerry's ill-fated girlfriend in that episode of "Seinfeld" where he's freaked out because she's an absolute beauty except for her big, beefy hands -- muscled paws that crack his lobster in half at a romantic dinner as if it were a peanut shell; big meat hooks that awkwardly, if tenderly, wipe some schmutz from the corner of Jerry's mouth.
Not unlike Jerry Seinfeld, I have a thing about hands. Apart from a person's eyes, hands are the first thing I look at when I meet someone, and I think they're almost as telling as the proverbial window to their souls. Are the hands nervous, with fraught and bitten fingers? Are they long and nimble, as if designed to tickle the keys of a piano or do acrobatics up the neck of a violin? Are they meticulously kempt, with long polished nails and no wayward cuticles or rough patches? Or are they burly and strong, with callouses and scars, the remnants of a life of hard work and adventure?
If a man has wan, delicate hands with -- God forbid -- longish nails, he may as well also have a pronounced hump, chronic body odor, and a raging heroin addiction, because that's as attractive as he'd ever be to me. One of the sexiest things about my husband is his big, strong, worry-free hands. They're like bear paws, hands he inherited from his father and passed on to his sons, and, most recently, to his newborn grandson, Aidan. I realize judging a man by the size and shape of his hands is sexist at best and most certainly irrational, but it is what it is. It's a natural predilection, the same as my aversion to cilantro and my love of stand-up comedy. Hands say so much, sometimes more than words ever could, and I want to hear what I want to hear -- something reassuring and protective and at the same time mindful, gentle, and elegant. That's me. That's what I was looking for in the hands of my true love, the hands that I was lucky enough to convince to hold mine for the remainder of our days on this Earth.
Jesus must have had man hands. He was a carpenter, the Bible tells us. I know a few carpenters, and they have great hands, all muscled and worn, with nicks and callused pads from working wood together with hardware and sheer will power. In my mind, Jesus isn't a slight man with fair hair and eyes who looks as if a strong breeze could knock him down, as he is sometimes depicted in art and film. I see him as sturdy, with a thick frame, powerful legs, and muscular arms. He has a shock of curly black hair and an untrimmed beard, his face tanned and lined from working in the sun. And his hands -- hands that pounded nails, sawed lumber, drew in the dirt, and held the children he beckoned to him. Hands that washed the disciples' feet, broke bread for them, and poured their wine. Hands that hauled a heavy cross through the streets of Jerusalem and were later nailed to it. Those were some man hands.
I've heard it said that grace is God reaching God's hands into the world. And the Bible tells us that we are part of the body of Christ, that if we let the Spirit move through us, we can become the hands of Christ on Earth. Hands that heal, bless, unite, and love. I'd like to think God's hands are a bit like Grace's man hands -- gentle but big, busy and tough. God's hands are those of a creator -- an artist who molded and shaped the universe out of a void, who hewed matter from nothingness.
I keep one of my most prized possessions in the center of our circular dining room table. It's a wood sculpture we bought on our first visit to Nairobi a while back. The story of how we came upon it is one of my favorites to tell.
It was our last day in the Kenyan capital before heading south to Tanzania. After breakfast at the Methodist guesthouse where we were staying, I checked my e-mail and found a note from my dear friend in New York City, the Jesuit priest and author Jim Martin. He'd heard that I was traveling in Kenya and asked me, if time allowed, to please stop by the Jesuit Refugee Service where he lived in the 1990s. During his tenure in Nairobi, Jim opened a shop called the Mikono Centre at the Jesuit compound where refugee artisans sell their wares. Our agenda for the day was pretty full, but we decided to swing by the shop on our way to visit some new friends in Kibera, one of two enormous slums in the city not far from the Jesuit Refugee Service. While we were browsing at Mikono through racks of textiles and paintings depicting African scenes and spiritual tableaus -- I purchased a nativity set made entirely from banana leaves -- the shop clerk asked if we'd like to see some of the artists at work. One of their most popular artists, she told us, was working on a carving in a building a few yards away.
"His name is Agostino," the clerk said.
Hearing that name felt like a thunderbolt had hit the ground. Agostino! Jim had mentioned his name to me with so much love. He'd written about Agostino in his wonderful book This Our Exile: A Spiritual Journey with the Refugees of East Africa. Jim had discovered Agostino, a refugee who had fled to Kenya from his native Mozambique, carving rosewood sculptures on a mat outside an office building in downtown Nairobi. Jim invited Agostino to sculpt at the Jesuit compound and sell his pieces at Mikono. He was one of the first artists to do a booming business and gather a following of patrons -- a man whose faith, as well as his artistry, had so inspired my friend the priest, and one of the center's great success stories.
I bolted out the door toward the building where the clerk said Agostino was carving. As I turned the corner, there he was, bent over a piece of ebony wood propped up on a broad stump that served as his workbench. He looked exactly as Jim had described him, a bear of a man with liquid eyes, soulful and with a quiet strength, like a living saint.
When I introduced myself and told him I brought greetings from Jim, he beamed.
"Please tell Father Jim that it's a good thing he started Mikono all those years ago," he said. "Now we have children and some of them are in school, and they're in school because of this."
When Agostino said "this," he motioned to the piece he had just finished carving and was beginning to stain with a delicate, long-handled brush.
It was the figure of a small black child pressing his face and hands into the palm of a giant man's hand. Even in its unfinished state, it was breathtaking. We asked Agostino when he thought he would complete the sculpture and told him we would like to buy it and take it home with us. He said he could finish it by that evening. We agreed on a price and told him how glad we were to meet him and how thrilled Jim would be that we had been able to see him.
As we turned to leave, I asked if the sculpture had a name.
"Yes," Agostino said quietly. "I call it 'Hand of God.' "
When we returned that night to collect the Hand of God, Agostino was gone and the sculpture was wrapped in paper and packed carefully in a bag for our travel the next morning. I don't recall how many days later we opened the package to take a better look at the piece, but when we did, we found an added surprise.
On the bottom of the sculpture, next to where he'd signed his name and the date, Agostino had carved a Scripture reference from the 49th chapter of the book of Isaiah. We took out our Bible and looked it up.
This is what it said:
"Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palm of my hands."