3:17 am
just got home from the office
accessories almost finished
looking good
exept im not looking or feeling so good
Upbeat?
Yes
but im physically sick now
i felt like i was about to pass out at the office tonite
had to pray to God for it not to happen as i was there by myself
I've never passed out before
dont know what it's like
but......
tonite felt close.
honestly,
there is a part of me that feels guilty about this
i am willing my way to something i really want to do,
Anticipation,
Fear,
exitement,
all the different emotions
However,
there are a lot of things i consider more important than fashion
but sometimes i dont put as much effort in those aspirations as
i do in this
Is my Career becoming a god to me?
have i become a worshipper at the altar of professional accomplishment?
i wont think about it now
but...............
i will have to re-evaluate a lot of things after this show.
Maybe this zeal that i have to succeed at this can carry over to other areas of my life. (which would be very good for me personally.)
i am tired
i wanted to leave the office at 12am but never left until two
made some belts ,
only to realize that the loop that hold the tongue of the belt in position was never placed on them
tried to improvise by creating something
but.
didnt like the result
i took them off
so that caused a delay
have to figure something out.
i have an idea
i will test io tommorow.
all the "spats' for the shoes are made
No, i didnt find the leather
i bought a substitute this morning
it worked quite fine (exept for a few things i may have to alter or improvise with respect to colour)
my bosses are really nice
How many companies are gonna let you work until 2am
at thier place,
on thier equipment,
by yourself,
on your own stuff,
that is of no benefit to the company?
i thank them very much
i am having rum and juce again
(two more like this and i can be officially recognized as a alcoholic)
busy day ahead
hope to be up at 6am
dont know if my body will let me though
i am sick right now (cold, there are some stuff coming out of me that it would be quite rude to describe, thats the reason for the rum tonite)
i wanted to make two belt for the trencoats tonite to take with me to work in the morning
i am too tired though
i will try to do it in the morning depending on the time i get up
lot of things to do tommorow,
have to find something to lace the "spats"
that means....
garment district before i go to work
hopefully i get there early
EA is waiting on me to call her back
but.
too tired right now
i will call and apologize tommorow
thank God for tommorow (sabbath)
at least i will get some rest
looking forward to the weekend
to organize everything
My biggest fear right now is...........
hopefully the PPl will come out to the show
i really worked very hard
the clothes are great (as usual,)
it would mean a lot to me..
then its selling time
all things begin again...........
God Bless
zamb