so i was sort of bummed out today. just felt lonely and unproductive. i have this huge art assignment coming up that i should be working on but it's so difficult when you have to rely on other people. so rather than just wallowing in self pity i started to make a book because well i like making them anyways and haven't done it enough. so here it is
cover. this is sort of what i wore today. i guess it's sort of about my day and just how i've been thinking and feeling.
i wont explain it all, but i'll just highlight things. i've noticed that i more openly talk to people i've met online and it sort of irritates me that i can't trust people enough here. but then this book is a lot about do i trust people too much? it's like people will say they want to see you and they'll call you and you believe them i stayed home alone for like 6 hours just waiting and guess what both of them blew me off. that's mostly what sparked this, i feel like i just say oh don't worry about it. i dunno.
i feel like i don't have any casual friends. spontaneous friends. well i may have one but she goes back to college on sunday. it's like no one can just hang out, everything has to be planned and organized blah blah blah
here's a red carpet sort of just to formalize things. i love this scan.
there's this guy who seems to be the ringleader of a great deal of people. he goes to a different school but his opinion really seems to jerk people around, not to mention he's the biggest gossip and most flamboyant person i know here. i call him the queen bee of foothill.
so the queen bee didn't really like me for awhlie some of my friends established that he's jealous of me and that he sort of likes me not to mention boyfriend likes me a lottt. so when i say tease...you get it.
i don't know if this page belongs here but it's getting lighter in tone and more of a joke. v is virginity.
books are really for lack of a better word theraputic. just illustrating...i mean just making itself is so rewarding. plus i like just experimenting with more illustrative work, lately i've been really influenced by fashion illustrator...i'll find the name