I remember growing up being really self conscious about this..... Guys would tease me, like, hey you have no boobs, or you wear no bra!
And my biggest fear was to make out with someone and that persons finds out I am totally flat.....
I used to be
extremely scared of stepping out without a massively padded bra and that fear eventually went away when I met knew people who couldn't care less about that and appreciated me no matter what. I grew up with a mother who would say that "women need to have breasts" and would always repeat that I wasn't normal and that it made all my clothes look terrible on me.... I'd loose tons of self esteem because of that, and worse, she still does.
I remember growing up and talking constantly about breast implants and how it was going to be the solution to "everything". I'd have such a low esteem of myself,
thinking I was "deformed" or "underdevelopped" or whatever else and would constantly find a way to hide my breasts....
I'd hug people in strange way so they couldn't feel my non existant breasts, or when someone would take me in their arms, I'd just cover my non existant breasts with my arms...![:neutral: :neutral: :neutral:](https://imgur.com/AJmilLC.png)
. It was always stressful or pressuring to spend a night over with someone I liked if I knew something would happen if only I wasn't so fearful.
I grew up with a crowd in which we all felt a lot of pressure to have our first sexual experiences at a young age, I was considered "old" when I had my first one and I surely remember how terrible it was, I didn't want to take of my bra, or as a matter of fact my tank top. I remember the guy with whom I was trying to put his hand under my bra. It was with an extremely respectful and special guy that (I later loved and loved me for who I was) didn't go any further and
I rembember how much I panicked, thinking, he won't like me because I don't have boobs. Until the day I got rid of my padded bras, be my own self and wear something my size and went through the whole process with that special person all over again and I slowly learned to accept and love my body as it is.
Now that I am older, I try to forge my own path and deconstruct a lot of norms I was inflicted through the society, through my education. It is a very hard and long process and I am still battling with this fear every now and then.