Does anyone ever get inspired by non-visual mediums, like dialogue or writing, or music without lyrics? Not necessarily the images that those things conjure, but also intangible feelings that they can create. This happens to me a lot, but I never post it, because it's so difficult to pinpoint the inspiration, and explain how that translates to my style. Recently, the following story got to me, especially the part of the girl sitting against the bed and holding her lover's hand while he sleeps.
http://women.timesonline.co.uk
Hard to Forget, by Siedemset
My counsellor is not sure that it was love. Maybe lust. I have been going to my sessions for over half a year now. Absolutely I should not have loved her. I am married, have two children whom I am crazy about.
But I fell for our Polish au pair, like a car crash! She, an ordinary girl. But lively. Laughed a lot. Sporty, slim, sweet. We had common interests: contemporary music, humour, each other, my children, a European background: I am part-Danish.
One evening when we were on our own, we held hands halfway through a film,
Donnie Darko, and ended with a kiss.
A strange summer apart followed, me thinking about her. When she returned, I declared my love for her and she for me. We met in secret.
Our affair grew. Became more intense, close, real, passionate than my marriage or any of my other pairings. I liked to breathe in the air she exhaled, have part of her inside me. Sometimes I would fall asleep on my own and wake to find my hand being held by the girl, sitting on the floor next to the bed. Silently.
One night she disappeared and I found her in the woods, in a nightie.
We made love standing up in the driving rain. Other times we snuck out during a party when everyone was occupied. I was her first love.
Needless to say, we were discovered. My marriage stayed intact but the girl left. She found someone else.