#insidertellsall
I'm trying to be an honest source and to show the industry as it is...Each show season, only thousands of new faces are being booked, that means the chances of those who are a bit more experienced and have done a couple of seasons already are decreasing, it gets harder and harder for them to stay on top and to keep the point of view/stand point [not entirely certain what she means here], not impossible, but very difficult. Many aren't even trying any more or do 'direct bookings', although the chances to be invited for castings are much higher when you're in town instead of being flown in from abroad.
Girls are getting soaked in and puked out again one after the other by the industry, you can imagine what that does to the self-confindence of a 16-year-old girl chasing her dream. It's immoral and sickening/disgusting.
They told me I was not a show girl, too tall & too "athletically built," - and they don't have any idea about what kind of person I am, head is thinking [or does she mean: what I'm thinking?? I don't know], I'm ****ing stubborn and decide to go for it anyway. They can kiss my ....

The feeling of walking when the music is on point is too amazing to give up on it, especially when you've already invested a lot of time to get your measurements right. They told me my chances for Milan were at 20%. Alright, I'll take the 20% and give them my 120% and see how it turns out. Can't wait. Optimism is everything in life, otherwise you can forget about it right away. I know what I'm talking about. Trust me.
If every girl gave up just because she isn't a new face anymore, do you know what would change in the industry? NOTHING. I went to my agency today and insisted on seeing casting director xy - who is in charge of 95% of the top shows in Milan. They sent me to the new face casting. He recognized me and told me to wait. He saw all of the new faces first (power play) and only then it was my turn. As if I hadn't done all of this before in my first season. I got a callback for one of my favs. The heat is on. Fingers crossed. I won't give up.